D and I were just told by our security chief that the main place we wanted to visit for a project we're working on is off-limits. M said that D could go, but it'd be too dangerous for an American.
We'll get the project done through other means, but it's still so frustrating to hear the list of things I'm not allowed to do. I'm clearly not going to fight M's decision--I'm not interested in risking my life more than necessary--but that doesn't make it any easier to accept. I came to Baghdad to see Baghdad, but without being in a military Humvee I get to see very little. I feel the same way I did when D and I left for their shopping trip the other day; like I'm a six-year-old who's not quite tall enough to ride the cool roller coaster or a 16-year-old who still has to sit at the kids' table. Rationally I get it, I really do--please don't post comments reassuring me that this is for the best. If you know me, you know I want to see and do everything for myself, and having that privilege taken away is difficult no matter what the circumstances.
Presumably I'll get used to this, but right now it sucks. And no, I don't really care that I sound like a petulant child.
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"Curiosity is one of the permanent and certain characteristics of a vigorous mind." Samuel Johnson
You have many fans counting on you, praying for you and knowing you will deliver the job and truths about what is going on in Iraq.
Thanks for being who you are.
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